I am officially a WoW player again. Mek’s up and rolling and strolled through Kara last night for some good old fashioned killing fun. Man it feels good to be a warlock.
In my last few months of pregnancy I was so tired that everything was an effort, sitting upright was near impossible for long periods of time and it placed Kyle square on my bladder. So I peed. A lot. Around that time Angelic Wrath breathed it’s last breaths and I and the other officers were working on trying to keep the people who’d stayed with us and supported us a float in the game. Then came the merge with Corner Stones of Azeroth and the bumps that come with that. I didn’t raid much and when I could I was completely useless most of the time.
Post Kyle I was so tired when I got home I wanted to play mindless games where I could point and click then not think of strat or how to get my butt out of that spot I just put it in. Then game the stretch of money when I wasn’t getting paid for more than a month at a time. I had to take a break.
During that time the guild moved on, as they always do. I was demoted, which is understandable. I’m not out geared and out classed by most everyone and I feel a little a drift. I wouldn’t say that I’m not happy, just sort of floating in that odd do I belong or not sort of place. My tepid mention of maybe raiding again was met but an even more tepid response and I realize I don’t know a lot of the people anymore.
But, over all it’s a great guild. Zultura is a very nice person. I want to contribute so I farm and send mats to the bank and pass over gear that’s actually an upgrade from Kara, sad yes?, to alts. I’m not a raider and I’m in a raiding guild.
Even with this sort of floating non belonging belonging I’m so happy to be back. To be Meki. For a long time I lost myself in being Kyle’s mommy and now I have a piece of Dana back. I play once he’s in bed for the night or sometimes while he’s playing in his excersaucer behind me. He likes the movement and dancing. But I still don’t come anywhere near the play time I once had. And I’m ok with that. Because I don’t play for the gear or the glory, I never did. Yeah, I get pride when I wear gear that is hard fought and other, lesser Warlocks drool, and there is a thrill from being from a guild that people respect. But really I play for me, because after being Jason’s wife, Kyle’s mommy and an employee I’m a gamer. And I’m a WoW player.